Finally, an experience worth bragging about...

wow finally nakapost ako ulit... due to extreme laziness and jam-packed schedules, i lost interest in writing blogs. besides, i really dont like posting my life in the net, ya know, lots of stalkers and all that... hehe feeling!!!

anyhoo, what made me post again is this recent experience that i hafta tell the world... and its called ASLA!!! now i know why its ASLAmazing... hehe. its really a life changing experience, and it really gave me a clearer view of who i am and how to answer all my problems that's been bugging me for quite some time now.

i think my fellow ASLAns know this problem. and its something im pretty much not proud of. anyhoo, i promised myself i wont talk about this publicly, so it should not come out here. i really dont know why that problem has to occur, and to think sinabayan pa siya ng lots and lots of problems. kaasar talaga. maybe one of the things i realized during the ASLA experience was to appreciate the little things you have in life. for those of you who dont know me that well, im a very very insecure person. as in sobra. on the outside i may look like that obnoxious joker who plays mind games with people, or be that fun playful madaldal na icebreaker who always have a cheerful disposition... on the inside sobra akong insecure... always reflecting, always hurting... i dont know why, siguro may pinag-uugatan ang lahat ng problema, probably i just need a shrink...

haha anyway, back to the ASLAmazing experience!!!! grabe i was able to meet a lot of new friends, new connections and establish new relationships! andami kong natutunan, and i immediately applied it sa plevsem (plansem/evsem) namin sa HR dept of Celadon. Gusto ko rin sana i-pattern yung leadership devt program ng Celadon with ASLA's program. Grabe, ASLA turned out to be way better than I expected. I was kinda hesitant na baka wala akong makausap at first... pero as mentioned sa one of the letters i received nung graduation, "you have the personality that makes people gravitate and flock towards you..." nakakataba ng puso pero syempre i wasnt conscious that i was like that. insecure nga akong tao diba? hehe but sure enough i was able to establish a lot of friendships, aside from the TnT friends I was with. the quattro keads!!!!!! yeah you guys rock... i sure miss ya guys, and cant wait for our next outing. hehe is there by any chance a post-ASLA Congress? hihihihi...

anyhoo, been bumming the past few days, yesterday i was out the whole day without even the knowledge of my parents... haha beat that shit! well, i really dont like staying at home, too much problems, drama, pressure, and all that crap... God my life is a mess!!! hahahahaha in about 5 days we lose the house, so im searching units in the katipunan area that arent that expensive. i dont wanna squat with some house that i dont have any right or privacy over... no way jose! so im hoping my scholarship application gets accepted so that i can still fund my dorm allowance. of course my late nights in q. ave. just isnt enough! haha joke... :)

it's aj's bday on 27!!! yipee!!! the oldest in the barkada will get older again!!! hahahaha joke... hapi bday aj... cant wait for the makati shang's treat... haha joke... wish you all the guts and courage in the world para di ka na hanggang pagsta-stalk na lamang... hohoho!!!

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its been a long time since i posted here, been lazy these past few days. anyways, my computer got infected with a spyware... super bad trip, and to think that a lot of people use this computer!!! now, they think im downloading porn!! haha kaasar talaga! im getting tired of removing this na... sarap ibalibag sa sahig tong computer na to. hay naku, kaasar talaga. whatever, the hell with them. i just hate the fact that my computer's slowing down because of that. grrr....

anyways, just finished my tnt interviews, it was an interesting experience. as usual, i was put to an embarassing situation. ill just leave that thing between me and the core team... haha and to think that jeff, my friend, was there to test me! anyways, feel ko di ako matatanggap... oh well, lets just wait for monday...

cant wait for saturday... hr plansem... hope tis successful...

stupid blog....

when i saw my blog, the messages on the tagboard was gone!!! what happened? my html was ok naman... i didnt change it naman... help!!!! hehe please!!! why is that "warning..." always show up? hmmm.... bakit kaya?

ECLAT

Last weekend i was supposed to go to tagaytay with my high school friends and stay at my friend's house. i was so excited and then good 'ol el presidente, mr. cheson begged if i could come to this year's summer ECLAT. It's the time where the fil-chi org of Celadon and Lasalle come together and fight it out on who really is the better school... haha no offense to anyone... anyways, he was able to pursuade me naman and i was sort of curious on what goes on during the ECLAT. i mean id be surprised if no one gets killed along the way. hehe

so there i was off to caliraya laguna where the team building was supposed to be held. it took us i think about 3-4 freaking hours just to get to the place. literally, mu butt was extra numb! haha anyways, the numbness paid off coz when we reached the place, my god, it was so beautiful!! haha hmmm let me think of a good word, paradise! we had to take a boat to get to the resort. ted, joyce, edmond and paulrich greeted us on the dock. i was super excited.

anyways, so we got to the cottage and it was ayt. then after settling we immediately proceeded to the dining hall where our buffet lunch was waiting for us! haha sweet Jesus!! then we went na to the conference room where the group dynamics and getting to know people started. well, i happen to do something super embarassing during that session!! as in super nakakahiya talaga yung ginawa ko... (haha just ask any person who went to the ECLAT... coz im extremely embarassed to write it here) anyways, its all good....

the lasalle people were okay naman... contrary to what kinsley had been blabberring all morning!!! haha grabe siya manlait sobra! hehe for us its funny, but wait till a lasallite hears what he has to say... anyways, so after the dg, it was dinner time na, since 6 pm yung call time for dinner. then after we started the amazing race... it was super saya!! we got to solve like a mystery murder case, using clues that we got by completing different stations. there was one station wherein i was forced to drink a shot of hotsauce and patis!!! yuck! grossest thing ive ever tasted...

our clues got all mixed up coz one station accepted our clue when they werent supposed to.. that caused us some valuable time, but in the end, we got to the final station first. and then we figure out that we still missed one more station! gosh!! super pagod na kami with all the running up and down the hills and stairs and all that stuff. pero in the end, there were 3 teams trying to solve the mystery of ted's murder... we were so confused as to who killed ted, caused there were so many angles to look at... we felt like we were true CSI investigators... it was super fun.. anyways it turns out that no group got the right answers. but the closest story was bso's group so they won. i believe that the story's flawed!! our story was more credible, more realistic and more CSI-ish!!! haha

the next day we decided to go on a canoe ride at Lake Caliraya!! exag super ganda talaga ng scenery! there's even a temptation island that we coined there coz i think its a private resort that was super gorgeous talaga!! we paddled our way to different views of laguna. we even got to see a huge carabao taking a dip in the lake... how cool is that!!! the next day, everyone got sunburned.... my legs are like cookies and cream right now....

anyways, got to meet new people and gain new friends, a few not so good incidents here and there, but that's all good. haha just goes to prove first impressions are not always correct. all in all, i think the ECLAT was a success!!! congrats to the project heads and to Joyce and Ted. im looking forward to the next ECLAT!!! haha hopefully there will be more, extra-hot, gorgeous single chicks from Lasalle next time... hehe

I can see clearly now

this blog is for the past couple of days of my life that was quite interesting...

Monday, April 11, 2005

Finally, distribution of grades... it's been quite a while that i have been anticipating for this day and finally it has arrived. im a super grade-conscious kid and id be a hypocrite if id say that getting a d.l. wasnt part of my "to-do" list. As my dad was driving me to school (which he super seldomly does), my heart was super pounding coz i know that i had done fairly well this sem than the previous semesters. ive been trying to compute like every scenario for my grades the whole summer break, and now its time to finally see the real deal. here's the thing, i know my grades na in all my subjects except s.a. and eco. the teachers dont want to get bothered, i guess. so if i get B+ in both subjects, then id get a 3.35 qpi. so there, when i got to sec b foyer, winni was the regcom in my line!! haha so i said to her dont tell me my grade coz my knees are like all wabbly and stuff... and then i asked my friend to get it for me coz i am super freaked talaga that moment. anyways, my friend told me what grades am i expecting for sa and eco.. and then i said B+, and then she just stared at me and said: " Nakakainis ka talaga, you even exceded past your expectations noh..." It really wasnt registering on my mind, until it came to me... YES!!! I was a dean's lister!!! Gosh... pwede na kong mamatay.. hehe one of the best experiences of my entire life... my first d.l. *smile*
turns out my qpi was 3.43. Thank you God!

Well, im a very insecure man... and i always (and i mean always) seek for approval and flattery from others. that is just me. i am a people person and yes, im not afraid to admit it, but i need people to keep on encouraging me and making my head bloat so big so that i can strive harder on myself. well, im slightly disappointed that no one recognizes my efforts ive made this past semester... Im sorry pero kelangan ko i-motivate sarili ko right now through this, and im not doing this just to boast. but really, i fucking dont get the credit that i deserve. people around me dont really see the achievements i have made for the past few months... i worked sort of as a working student at night by tutoring a kid almost every night form 7-10 pm average. i had a project (leadership development program) to take care of, which is quite exhausting knowing the fact that its a month long project, i had 20 units of academic load, which includes a fucking accounting 30 and a stupid l.s. (leadership and strategy). i am proud of my extra-curricular activities, satisfied with my performance in academics, and have been working my ass off just so i can make the ends of my college life meet. and people think that im not good enough? shit man!!! screw all of you!!! puta, sino sa inyo makakapagsabi na naging working student kayo sa ateneo, and yet nakapag-dl kayo, balancing everything from extra-curricular activities, ample socialization with people handling stupid family problems all at the same time? i mean come on, i should deserve better than what the people around me think of me. alam mo yun, imbes na magdiwang ako for my accomplishments, i am writing my frustrations, in hopes that i convince someone out there that i am a good catch... *wink* my anger is subsiding now...

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

God! What a hell day! The RegCom sucked! Big time! You know what? Enough said... Sa mga walang summer classes.. Good God you are so lucky!!! Pag 1st sem ganyan parin yang sistema nila lilipat na ko ng lasalle!!! haha yeah right...

today i just realized how over-achieving i can get. i mean i applied for this thing in ateneo, and i got a little bit overwhelmed... (though that's not gonna stop me from doing what i want), and i got persuaded to join this thing again by my friend, that i assume is gonna take up a hefty fraction of my time. but at least now i wont be working part time as a tutor anymore, coz i think i have night classes na... shit... and i live in malabon... now that's just great...

the day ended with a realization that made me look in the brighter side of life.. you dont always get what you want. you see that's my problem, sometimes my mind gets clouded with all those im the greatest, i have everything, superiority complex kind of crap... haha im both proud and ashamed of that (i cant seem to explain why). guess ill just have to be myself, good ol' Mr. 'Thinks too highly of himself that everyone's below you and you are like god'... Maybe the people around me are right with their judgement all along....Guess im not that perfect after all....

Bejigidi...

Yesterday I played badminton with my old high school friends... Im really an addict hehe... even though it was nighttime and i had no means of transportation, i still went to Intramuros. Well it was worth it for i got my days worth of exercise. I cant believe how long ive been bumming out... and it was a good feeling flexing those muscles again...

After that very good exercise, we ate at Tempura... all that exercise going to waste... (grrrr....) oh well, cant wait to smash some shuttlecock again... (who wants to play with me?)

got some bad news last night... my batchmate back in high school suddenly had seizures... gosh, he never had that kind of disease or allergic reaction before.. we were discussing it last night and we figured it was due to the chemicals he was using for his course.. (industrial design). well, it's not that fatal, right? i dont want to attend another funeral... well, i hope he gets well soon... kinda makes you realize how special your life is... as we always take it for granted...

oh well, enough with the sad story... on thursday our block's going to tagaytay for three days!!! yey!! i hope it pushes through coz last time i wasnt able to come. i was working my ass off (again) that's why i missed it. gosh i should be a millionnaire by now with all the fun outings i missed. and yet nothing's enough for me. maybe this is a result for being deprived of all the good stuff during your childhood... hehe

well, i cant wait for thursday!! me and kara will be bringing drinks!!! yeah!!! inuman na naman!!! we're gonna force aj to drink and hopefully get him drunk!! haha imagine aj when he's drunk! duh, even if he hasnt drank beer he acts totally weirdo!!! hehe joke!!! But here's the thing, elaine's mom is coming, coz there is a thing goin on between her and someone else, so guarded kami... well, tago nlng! haha bahala na... :)

just finished doin my job for today.. ive got to say, i finished quite a lot of shares of stocks today... wow i cant believed i got studious today, oh well, more money for me!!! (*money makes the world go round talaga!!*) joke

By the way, the word Bejigidi, in Latin, means totally nothing... hehe :)

Help! I think I've suffered a heat stroke!

These past few days i feel like i have lots of things to do, yet feeling ko i'm still bumming my summer out... Usually here's my daily regime:
1:30 p.m. = Wake-up time (ang aga noh!)
1:30-7:00 = working at my grampa's place (which is just a few steps away from my house), using my accounting skills as an encoder of his shares of stocks from 1970s all the way till 2000+! Imagine the wrinkles i get from that! (but it's all worth it, coz it's worth 500 bucks a day, man!)
7:00-3:00 a.m. = watch tv... even if there is nothing good to watch...
3:00-4:00 a.m. = doin like thousands of sleeping positions, for i cant seem to fall asleep... not at peace with myself these past few days... dont know why...
4:00-1:30 = zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............

Why cant i sleep like the way i used to? Maybe its my bed (super tigas!! grr...), maybe its my pillows (cant i have enough? think i got around 5 pillows around me yet i think im not yet satisfied... definitely has some security issues... hehe), maybe its my frustrations for not going out of town this summer, well i cant help it if i have to work so that ill have money for my shopping and drinking bonanza!! hehe my parents sure wont give me some kaching... hell, they're the ones whose asking some from me... but im not mad, they're my parents, after all.

Well, maybe its just something else. I really dont know. You know what i need right now? 1 full case of Red Horse + 1 full bottle of sleeping pills! Yes, that should shut my misery up... :)

Anyways, look at my blog! Super crap! Hehe.. and i even wrote in my resume that im computer literate! God! I cant even handle MS Powerpoint for crying out loud! hehe, that's what i get for failing the itm diagnostic test 4 times! Yup, its 4! Hehe i really didnt want to take itm classes so i kept on taking the diagnostic tests until i passed! haha good thing the last test i took was super giveaway. Haha, not so much of a good role model, after all... Need help, guys! hehe (anyone? yoohoo?)

Im planning to take my summer classes only in the morning so i can do something productive and fruitful in the afternoon. Im choosing whether I should go back to the gym (coz i feel my love handles constantly adding up in my belly, eh wala namang girlaloo na naghahandle ng love handles ko?) or i should go back to gymnastics. dont get me wrong, its not girly-shmirly.... last summer i learned back-hand spring! but now im afraid to try it again coz its been a long time since i executed the backhandspring. oh well, richard! sabay ulit tayo! (you should have learned that by now since kelangan yan sa lasalle pep noh! haha) Or maybe i learn kapouera! (is that how its spelled?) its been like 4 years since i said to myself that ill learn that stupid brazilian martial arts dance thingy... oh well, its just one of the things i promised myself yet i cant seem to fulfill... Maybe the motivation's not there anymore, or is it?

Maybe i should go back to training volleyball in st jude. its been quite a while since i held a volleyball. btw, i bought a new shoes! (me and my true love.. shoes...) its a new pair of reebok shoes that i bought on sale for only 1450! haha now i have a new pair of vball shoes for iac! yey! anyways, bahala na... whatever opportunities come knocking my way, ill make sure to grab it. gosh.. this entry is quite long na pala, not my usual ranting personality... sorry for those who hate reading long paragraphs... hehe